So the 30 days of sharing is coming to an end....And I am actually kind of proud....I did it!  For twenty something days so far....I posted. i NEVER do that....It showed me that I can actually commit to something and do it!

But, today's topic is my year in great detail........And I find that to be a reallllly boring thing to write about!  I didnt really do anything besides school.....

So Instead,  I am posting this survey thingie that I stole from angyllina !

( You think you know, but you no idea..... )

I just have to start out by saying that this is probably the best and most helpful community I have found on Live Journal... everyone is so willing to help and so amazing in giving advice and I just have to say that I love you all for it!! Thank you guys so much so far as you have helped me out so much!!!

I know that I just posted on how to keep my hunger at bay, and the advice was awesome.. and I know.. drink tons of water lol. I have to up my intake dramatically, I know... now my other question is how do I keep from binging? I have a good idea how to keep myself from being hungy, but I am having an issue with just sitting down and mindless eating.. I know that it is because I am bored.. anyone else have this problem or am I alone in the boredom binging? Anyone have any ideas as to keep myself from doing it? I have recently taken up knitting, but finished my project and now not sure what to do... Thank you guys again for all the help!

I was debating on buying the Wii fit game. Does anyone know if it really helps or is it just mainly for Yoga buffs.

It is day one of my new look on life. I really don't know what to think because it is only half way through my day, and so far I have kept myself from binging like I usually do. I have started the weight watchers plan again because I did pretty well on it before and it is a healthy way to lose weight. I keep going back in my head to just stop eating all together and just keep things from going in my mouth to be able to lose weight, but it turns out that is how I have gained so much in the past few months because I stop eating for a bit and then binge and my body just holds on to it more than before. So weight watchers is all about portion control and making better choices so I hope I am successful.

But like I said, it is only half way through the day and it is hard to keep myself from going to the pantry and thinking "Oh that would be so great, and its a new bag so I can eat the entire thing!" That is disgusting but that is what I am thinking. I have kept myself from doing that so far today and am pretty proud of myself so far. My parents just went shopping yesterday so there is a ton of food sitting in there that I would love to munch on. I am also trying to increase my intake of fluids to keep myself from getting too hungry and just binging.

I had gone shopping with my boyfriend the other day and had been trying on clothes to buy with my Christmas money and it is hard because there are some things in Large that dont fit and then I can't buy pants in half of the stores that I absolutely love because my ass is too big. I am not borderline pant size 16 and that just makes me want to cry. I am really hoping I can stick with this diet so that I can just get on with my life in a healthy way and wear the clothes that I love to wear and look good in them and actually be comfortable in my body. So I am really hoping that I can get down to the single digits in pant sizes by summer time. I don't know if that is a big or unrealistic goal but I am going to try my hardest.

I have also decided to not start exercising until next week and get this diet under control and my full attention. I have noticed that after a week I feel a little easier in controlling myself with food if I can follow my diet for a week. I usually dont even make it the first day, but today I feel good, I feel like I can do it. I know I can do it.

Today's weight: 208.6
Lbs. to go: 93.6

My roomate and I have been thinking about doing a 7 day detox at the beginning of the new year, and I am just curious what experiences others have had with detoxing. Have any of you detoxed? How did you do it? Would you recommend it?

Thanks for your time everyone ^-^

i have everything set to go to the grocery store tomorrow. the only thing is i have no idea what to buy! ahh.

Hey everyone!
So today I reach my 1 year mark of my weight loss... I started 1 year ago today working out at my gym. I'm down about 70 lbs. I feel great and have gained so much confidence! With the new year coming, I hope to lose even more weight! I still have about 100 lbs to lose. (I cant believe I had to lose 170 lbs 0.0 one year ago today. and still have 100 more to go! sighh)
anyway, to those of you who are just starting out, it gets easier! Just stick with it. It'll all be worth it.

With the holidays, ive allowed myself to slack off quite a bit. Starting after New Years, I'm getting my butt back in gear 100%. I got a Wii Fit for Christmas and it's awesome!!! That + the gym should kick it up more.

Anyway, just wanted to thank everyone for the support! Keep it up, everyone!
Happy New Year!

.... yet again.

But is it really starting over? It's not like I went back to eating at McDonald's every day before heading to work. No. I go to the grocery store get a chicken wrap, some veggies and dip, maybe a yogurt parfait and a chicken blt salad. That has to last me 8 hours at work. I'll also stop at Tim Hortons and get a muffin and tea and maybe a bagel depending on how starving I am.
So maybe I'm just picking up where I left off? Or is it more of a 1 step forward 2 steps back kind of thing? Who knows? What I do know is that I'm saying good-bye to 2009 and welcoming 2010 with a glass of skim milk instead of the beer that I really want to have. And I mean I really want to have it. I have five bottles of Bud Light in the fridge. I can hear them now calling my name. I'm sorry Bud Light. I know we're friends, and you've always been good to me, never giving me hangovers or making me a gross drunk that you make some people. Thank you for that, but our relationship must come to an end, for now at least. Until I get myself in order.
So that's the plan. Get myself in order. Mentally, emotionally, and physically.
I want to read more. More books, more newspapers. Less rag mags and gossip sites.
I want to learn what makes me happy. What makes me sad. What makes me mad. Avoid negative people and try to be positive.
I want to be able to play with my niece and nephew without breaking a sweat within 5 minutes. I want my back not to hurt all the time from my boobs (and since boobs are mainly fat....). I want to be healthy.

So, I'm going to try and do this again. Write here often. If you're reading this,

hi.

I'm Samantha.

I'm 308lbs.

Here we go again lol.

xo
S.

hi everyone!

i've been lurking here for a while but never posted...

i guess i'm supposed to post stats first, right?

i'm 21 years old, 5'1" and just around 200 pounds. i want to start the new year off by being healthier and making promises to myself that i can keep.

to get an early start, i've decided this morning that i no longer want to drink soda.

i guess it's the little stepping stones that will get you to where you need to be. :)

happy new years, everyone!

So I have decided two things for the New Year, if I find the battery charger for my camera I am starting over with my 365 Photo Project.  Christen Inspired me this year and hopefully I may be able to inspire someone else in the New Year to pay it forward.  I learned, laughed and cried all while watching her change not only physically, but mentally, emotionally and so much more.

Doing this photo project coincides with me starting on a real diet and fitness plan...I don't know how much weight I want to loose, and there is a reason why.  When I set a numerical goal, I always sabotage myself and fail.  So instead I am setting small, NSV's.  And as I reach one I will  mark it off, and move on to another.  If I finish the initial list, there will be a re-evaluated supplementary list to go with it.

I'm building this around the life I lead, and the things that are important to me.  Small victories, equal HUGE sucesses for me!  So I'm working with that and hoping for the best...I will need each and everyone of you for encouragement, and maybe even a good swift kick in the ass when I let my life get in the way of taking care of myself. 

So the list I am making now is for my benefit to be ready 1-1-10  to release the LIST!

1.  Find camera charger
2.  Get a functional scale (mine bit it)
3.  Download music for the iPod  (any suggestions for that would be greatly appreciated)
4.  Clean up this stye of a house, so that I get get an appropriate balance of groceries in here

I say it all the time that I am going to do this...and I never do.  But this time I have too! 
I have many personal reason why I do and do not want to do this... but its not an option anymore. I WILL DIE IF I DON'T FIX THIS!  The doctor has confirmed and I am afraid.  A friend of mine (who just turned 33) had a heart attack last week.   It scared the holy Christ out of me!

So if anyone has any tips, tricks, or words of encouragement......I would love to hear it!

Add me here to follow my journey if you would like.....I hope to make many more friends through this and to cultivate the relationships I have already made..

Best,
Erin

A quote that I take to heart is this: "Its not about motivation. Its not about inspiration. Its about commitment. A commitment to yourself and a goal." And the mantra I have that goes hand-in-hand with that quote: "I'm worth it." We are all worth it, even during the busy holidays. So here is our holiday check in for X-mas eve and X-mas day, lets give ourselves and those we love a healthier us (you and me). Even for those of us that do not celebrate these specific holidays, we all feel the outside stressors and can get sucked into the the busy time-warp of rushed shopping, travel, and celebrations (and large meals? lol).

What did you do today to give yourself a healthier you?

( Today, I got up at 5am and... )

Happy Holidays! Happy Belated Yule!

my parents are bringing home a bunch of pizza soon. i know i dont want to eat it but i dont know if i can control myself. panic! help

Someone asked these questions; I answered, but I thought it would be nice to post them in here for the community to see as well. And I hope it helps those who are considering doing a half marathon for the first time.

Who here has ever run a half marathon?

ME! Dec 5th, 2009 (not that long ago :)). I did a combination of walking and running.

How much did you weigh (or how much weight did you have left to lose) when you ran your first one?

I weighed between 331.8 (two weeks before the half) and 326.4 (the Monday after the half) - I forgot to weigh myself the Monday before my the half.

How long and in what way did you train for it?

I trained for 7 months (month one pretraining for the official traning in month 2) with a group of friends. I figured that I would probably be "by myself" while doing the half, but it helped that I had other friends out there training on the same day I was training (on Saturdays). They didn't necessarily have to be right with me. So even though there were others out there training on the same day as me, I was pretty much by myself and I wanted it that way. I walked 2-3 days out of the week beginning with one mile one day and then 2 miles the second day (eventually I kinda had to adjust how many miles to walk on certain days, but meet the total mileage for the week minus my Saturday walk). The first Saturday walk was two miles, then the next Sat was 3, and the next 2, and then the next 4. Every other Saturday, mileage would increase by one until I reached 11 miles two weeks prior to the half marathon. I did my weekly walks and the Sat low mileage walks mostly on treadmill. Whenever our walks increased by one, I was always out there with friends but "by myself." We were supposed to do cross training in between walks but I never did really have the time for it. I just focused on walking my miles.

What is your best advice for getting past a mental motivation block?

Basically, I just told myself, I would get through one mile at a time. When one mile was done, I knew I could move on to the next. I carried water on my back all throughout my training as well as Luna and/or Clif Bars. Having food and water is VERY essential during training, especially long miles. I also did a lot of mental image of crossing that finish line. I built up the excitement. Doing a half marathon is completely different from training. There's so much motivation, adrenaline, excitement, entertainment, support, and encouragement out there. When you cross that finish line, you will feel so much emotion. I about bawled like a baby when I crossed Dec 5th. It was out of relief that it was done and amazement that I, over 300 pounds, did my first half marathon. I knew it was possible, but I couldn't believe that I actually did it. From mile 1 to 6.2 miles, I kept 20 mins 18 sec mile pace. From 6.2 miles to 13.1 miles, I was going 23 mins 20 seconds mile pace - which is pretty darn good for me!! When I trained for my 11 miles, my time predicted I would finish the half in 6 hours. I actually finished in 5 hours, 5 mins.

Hi. Can anybody tell me a little about the C25K thing. Ive seen it being talked about around the net and i was wondering about it. Is this good to get started on? Can I do this using a treadmill?  thanks :)

Hey everyone. I'm not exactly a stranger to this community, ahaha. My weight loss attempts have been comprised of some twenty pound victories here and there (all gained back) and one major victor about two summers ago. I'm currently undergoing the one attempt that I actually feel good about, comparable to that one time in the summer. However, what happened that one time was that toward the end, I began to restrict and fast and binge...just a terrible cycle. So now that I know that I'm prone to that, here I am two years later starting again.
( Getting a bit personal... )

I'd been doing fairly well with not emotional eating, until today. I went to Target, and as I was checking out, I was making small talk with the cashier. As she handed me my change, she asked me when my baby was due. I'm decidedly not pregnant. I've been a mess all day. Who does that?

Hi again. I'm Katy. I have to confess to falling off the wagon. See, it's hard, since my husband cooks and he just doesn't care about eating healthy. We live off of hamburger helper in the winter, and hamburgers in the summer. So I guess my point is that eating healthy around here is next to impossible. Instead I've decided to do three things

1. Only eat when I am hungry. Cut out the emotional eating, but also don't be lazy about getting food when I am hungry because then I get "ZOMG IM STARVING NOM NOM NOM!!!!" Also, only eat until I'm full. I'm terrible about "must finish everything on my plate because there are starving children in Africa!"

2. Run - I started the C25K program yesterday. I feel really good about it. It wasn't too hard at all. Of course we'll see what happens when the runs are longer than the walks next week. I came home and stretched for like 15 minutes and wound up feeling a little tight but not too bad.

3. Pushups - I found an iphone app that lets you say how many pushups you can do and then it tells you how many you should do in sets to get to 100 in 6 weeks. I'm doing them on my knees because I can only do two on my toes (d'oh!). This is TOUGH! My poor arms feel like jelly.


Anyway, here's the stats:

SW: 240 (beginning of last summer)
CW: 214 (down 10%!!)
1: 193 (by the end of winter quarter)
2: 174 (by the end of spring quarter)
3: 157 (by the end of summer)
GW: 140 (by the end of fall quarter)

Technically at my height I should weigh 125 - 135, but I decided 100lbs was a much cleaner goal so I'm aiming for 140.

I have a really bad habit of getting to 170 (the line where I go from obese to overweight) and then quitting and gaining it all back. I can't do that again!


Anyone want to be friends? Especially anyone doing the C25K thing, or the pushup thing, or with similar stats?

Well... I'm doing the 100 pushups program that promises to get you doing 100 pushups in 6 weeks. I'm doing them on my knees and then when I'm done I'll go back and do them on my toes because I can't do enough to get through day one on my toes. But oh man is that tough!!!